It never gets easier.

It never gets better, you just get better at it. 4 years ago today, Caleb passed away. I can't believe he's been gone as long as he was here. It still all seems so unfair. Sure, life has continued for us all, but not without a constant nagging feeling that something, someone is always missing. I wanted to see Monique and Rob, give them a hug, so Maddie and I brought some dinner and an orange rose (Leukemia awareness color) to their house.

The girls had fun in the hot tub...it wasn't turned on but the smaller body of water was warmer than the still-cool pool!

Monique found these beautiful lanterns online. They are biodegradable and supposedly float for a long time. Ours sank fairly quickly and we were mortified that we started a brush fire...
We usually do balloons, I'm thinking we'll stick to that in the future!

Hopefully Caleb noticed and knew they were intended for him in Heaven.

We miss you every day. XO