Wow...I can't believe my baby is one month old today!! While some sleepless nights and the sound of her wails seem to last an eternity, the past month has passed relatively quickly. So, what have we learned the past four weeks??
1. The most frightening and humbling experience in the world, in my opinion, is when the nurse hands you this tiny, fragile, unknown little human and sends you home with it...no manual.
2. I have never felt so inadequate, guilty and plain stupid as since this child came into my life. There is no amount of research, reading or inquiring that can prepare you for parenthood. I am 34 years old and I feel like child myself, bursting into tears and feeling downright confused.
3. A new baby has no schedule. There is no rhyme or reason to how or why they do things. What worked yesterday, will not work today.
4. Yes, a person CAN survive on 3 hours of sleep a night.
5. No, I still can't distinguish her cries...but I handle it better and have figured out a process-of-elimination strategy, eventually figuring out what she needs.
6. It's true when people say you forget your life before your baby entered it.
7. I have never known love like I do for her. I hate to be away from her, even for a short time. When I pick her up in the morning, after she's been crying for me, I melt when she calms with my kisses.
I look forward to the months ahead...the first time she smiles (not due to gas), her first steps, words. But I also want to enjoy these times, as challenging as they may be. I know someday soon a time will come when she will wriggle out of my arms and become more independent. In my most tired moments, I will remind myself this time is fleeting...breathe and enjoy.
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